Life comes a full circle

Venturing into the realms of "nothingness" ;yes i have just coinined this word it is an expression to signify the the depth just as we say meaninglessness . It extends the gravity of the word be it negative or positive.Where am i taking this , of course to nothing.

This nothing has been called a void, a vacuum or an avenue where everyone of us has ventured but could not give the description of its landscape , it's beauty or ugliness .A place which every one of us avoids but eventually lands in it for a while or for eternity.

So the Question is what does this nothingness pertains to??? that seems to be a pathetic question when i am saying its nothing then how could it have meaning but eventually we realize that it does have meaning. the meaning is well hidden under the seemingly feeling of "NOTHINGNESS".It is like anti matter the negative of the feeling when we have everything.Yes that is what we always want but how will we cherish everything until we realize its true value.

Whenever we have to venture into a different territory by train, plane or ship we reach the station were we board our transportation medium but generally its after a delay either for the sake of security checks, technical faults or arrival delays .This period of probation is in the realms of "Nothingness". But we don't realize that this was the period that eventually made us realize that the journey and the destination is important rather than standing at the station.It is like creating an extreme low so that you may realize how is it to achieve the greatest pleasure.

If it would not have been for the darkness no one would have appreciated the find of fire. No civilization would have endured the presence of sun God and literature would have announced or appreciated the win of good over evil.So if this "Nothingness" has so greater a meaning and it seems to be the negative of every thing that means it is the greatest evil one could find and overcome."Empty mind is Devil's playground" and this empty mind is cause of "nothingness".

The list is endless and one could go on comparing the good and evil things with this realm of nothingness and would arrive on a similar conclusion but the anticipation of the conclusion lies on one's own self so at the end of the day it is your attitude that matter and the understanding you derive out of the conclusion of nothingness. A positive approach would help you enhance your vices into virtues , love whatever you do and your opinion would matter about the situation .The life goes a full circle and things happen as they ought to happen it is you opinion and your choices which decide your course of existence either happily or into the realms of nothingness.

When it's death for a caterpillar , God says it's butterfly.

The Arabs feel that everything is already written, God is compassionate, and wrote it all down just to help us.
Think of the caterpillar. It spends most of its life on the ground, envying the birds and indignant at its fate and its shape. "I am the most disliked of all the creatures," it thinks. "Ugly, repulsive, and condemned to crawl along the ground." One day, though, Mother Nature asks the caterpillar to make a cocoon. The caterpillar is startled -- it has never made a cocoon before. He thinks that he is building his tomb, and prepares to die. Although unhappy with the life he has led up until then, he complains to God: "Just when I finally became accustomed to things, Lord, you takeaway what little I have." In desperation, he locks himself into the cocoon and awaits the end. Some days later, he finds that he has been transformed into a beautiful butterfly. He is able to fly to the sky, and he is greatly admired. He is surprised at the meaning of life and at God's designs.

The Zahir - I

The title comes from the famous author Paulo Cohelo who has unconventional ways of looking at things ,interpreting them in terms of Philosophy and Spiritualism.But this post is not a review of the book but a mere recollection of my interpretation and the way the book helped me in realising my true self .

The Zahir as the writer puts forth in the book

"In Beunos Aires , the Zahir is a common 20-centavo coin; the letters N & T and the number 2 bear the marks of a knife or a letter - opener; 1929 is he date engraved on the reverse.(In Gujarat , at the end of the eighteenth century, the Zahir was a tiger ; in Java , it was a blind man from the Surakarta mosque who was stoned by the faithful; in Persia , an astrolabe that Nadir Shah ordered to be thrown into the sea ; in Mahdi's prison,in around 1892, a small compass that had been touched by Rudolf Karl von Slatin...)

.....the story by Jorge Luis Borges, about something which, once touched or seen, can never be forgotten , and which gradually so fills our thoughts that we are driven to madness......"

I myself thought i was living with a Zahir and could never get passed it and that changed me completely i started creating my life according to it , accepting the fact that i was too weak and impulsive to get over it and it has to be in this manner that i will have to live with it for ever. The urge changed me completely into a person who never thought beyond his Zahir, which manifested his life to it and changed into a person who I actually was not . The persona that started to be reflected was like a dual personality that covered the actual desire to make my Zahir realize that i existed and that i was shattered by the Zahir presence.The Zahir made me become the person who did things that were obvious that pleased the society , it defeated the rebel in me.

I always tried to understand life ,the journey which is more important than the destination which probably is the end and the person seizes to exist either physically or mentally, but this Zahir was kind of obstructing my intellect; my true understanding.Actually before this book actually happened i couldn't recognise it as Zahir , which further complicated the issue as the things that are not understood always confuse us. And in that confusion i was shooting arrows in the dark but to no use as the aim probably was never in that direction.I had to get rid of my personal history , free myself from the burden of my past and start building my life brick by brick and that is what the author suggests and talks about Love to achieve that the love for life , the quest for knowledge and through various references suggests us to enjoy the journey called life.

He also suggests us to live life on our own terms , but the manner should be way different that we may actually interpret we don't actually have to upset people by living our life at our own terms but live in a manner that the people who are a part of your life are never hurt. The Zahir if taken in a positive essence can cause an experience which a person may never ever expect to know in his entire life span and that requires a level of conscience and understanding which this book provides. The new aspect of looking at things had eventually released me of my burdens, the pain i carried in the form of Zahir and the impulsive decisions i took because of it.I feel more controlled and balanced . This was something which i penned down few years ago ,

" We are the boats , sailing in the waters of life;

Facing the waves of fright ;

Pondering to give a fight;

Continue in our might.

Storms will come;

and lead us to our doom.

but we ain't done yet ;

for it's life we fetch."

Although it was in my early teens that i wrote the above lines when i was fascinated by rhyming sentences and the concept of Octets and Sonnets but the realization and depth they had could be well interpreted with what I am dealing with today. So I have to continue living ,building every moment of it ,for the time that has gone by shall never return but a new beginning has every possibility , for the boat damaged in a storm can always be repaired like new.

Taking life in positive stride

I don't know why am I penning down this? But a great urge happens to control my senses at the moment and i cannot stop it or over power it and happen to be me , a self controlled personality.
Actually i was going through a blog and that said that people should like you in any form you present yourself to them and if they don't they are hurting you in an impeccable manner, that was so immature of the author, but the sense of childishness attracted me . That kind of child resides in every one of us and we try to defeat it as we grow old . Trying to convince everyone around us to our point of view, achieving things which a few years down the line wouldn't even matter or hurting someone which matters to you the most in the world are the few things we resort to , in order to achieve the essence of being successful.
I never hated anyone and avoid hurting individuals which matter a lot to me. In fact i learn a lot about me from the perception of others and if that is criticism then its all the better.
I don't care about clarifying issues but they always have a purpose and a positive purpose which a person may not understand then and there but a few years down the line they may realise that i was up to no harm, and these are a few physiological methods of getting past a failure that I always avoided.

Interpreting "Winners don’t do different things, they do things differently"

It has been a while since I wrote my last blog but this should be blamed on the shortage of time and the pile of tasks I had to undertake to justify my professional existence. During this, I had wonderful opportunities to learn about the behavioral patterns of individuals and their approach towards undertaking a task and the level of accomplishments achieved by them. In this blog I am going to shed light on this fact alone.
“Winners don’t do different things, they do things differently”, is the phrase we all have been listening to every time we seek motivation in our work or rather to say after a failure or a mishap. Do you really think this is what we seek to inspire us to do things successfully?? Strange as this may sound but the people the phrase refers to underwent more number of failures than a common individual yet they stood there facing the wraths of time and prevented themselves and their motivation from being overburdened by the hordes of failures they underwent. The most successful of all beings, inclusive of Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Abraham Lincoln, Sydney Sheldon and the list continues; faced many failures in their lives but they never looked at it as a failure but a mile stone which taught them that the task has to be done in a way different than what they had anticipated.
Edison after a series of failures during his invention of electric lamps quoted that “I have not failed but I have found thousand ways of, how not to proceed to build an electric lamp.” So it’s just the perception of an individual that matters and that is what acts as the motivating fact and keeps him going. But over the last few days I found people who considered the above phrase as the word of “The Oracle” and thought that they may easily win if they did things differently. What actually they should understand is that the more open they are to understanding their mistakes and learning from them, the more closer they will get to winning. The hilarious part of the above fact is if a person is doing things differently and he is continuously failing, he will start questioning his intellect even if the idea implemented by him was a brilliant one and nothing better could have been thought of in the present scenario and will start believing that “Doing things differently is surely his Mistake”.
For the real Phrase they should be following is “Try try and thou shall succeed”

life is what we maketh of it

Tieing the loose ends of my story is what i am currently doing , winding up every relation ,every emotion to the ending i had planned for them, with the competency of a show man. These events over a past few years have taught me to believe life is what we make of it!! It is certainly a matter of interest for those who believe life is a game of chance, for i planned every bit of it, i drew conclusions and plotted my theories with practicals falling exactly in rhythm with my theories.
Life is very short span for an individual to explorer every emotion in the book for he may be lacking the perfect plots to learn them so realizing the correct plot and identifying the emotions that could be studied in that scenario expresses one's competence as a show man. This is in my regards living life with one's own virtues and shaping it as we wish.
It all took me some time to realize the potential of the turf i was in , then i came to realize that i have a kink to understand how things work and how they could me manipulated to one's own interest . The power of controlling the opinion of the masses envisioned me to understand the collective human behaviour, this quest in me to understand the nature of things and learn from every move of mine or an individual directly affecting me,imparted me with knowledge and understanding of things i possess at the moment.
But every story has an end and so does this,but life goes on and their are still various emotions left to be explored , so in an ave to discover a new turf which could be winded off so easily and has the potential to change the understanding of an individual, i would tie the last loose string.