The Zahir - I

The title comes from the famous author Paulo Cohelo who has unconventional ways of looking at things ,interpreting them in terms of Philosophy and Spiritualism.But this post is not a review of the book but a mere recollection of my interpretation and the way the book helped me in realising my true self .

The Zahir as the writer puts forth in the book

"In Beunos Aires , the Zahir is a common 20-centavo coin; the letters N & T and the number 2 bear the marks of a knife or a letter - opener; 1929 is he date engraved on the reverse.(In Gujarat , at the end of the eighteenth century, the Zahir was a tiger ; in Java , it was a blind man from the Surakarta mosque who was stoned by the faithful; in Persia , an astrolabe that Nadir Shah ordered to be thrown into the sea ; in Mahdi's prison,in around 1892, a small compass that had been touched by Rudolf Karl von Slatin...)

.....the story by Jorge Luis Borges, about something which, once touched or seen, can never be forgotten , and which gradually so fills our thoughts that we are driven to madness......"

I myself thought i was living with a Zahir and could never get passed it and that changed me completely i started creating my life according to it , accepting the fact that i was too weak and impulsive to get over it and it has to be in this manner that i will have to live with it for ever. The urge changed me completely into a person who never thought beyond his Zahir, which manifested his life to it and changed into a person who I actually was not . The persona that started to be reflected was like a dual personality that covered the actual desire to make my Zahir realize that i existed and that i was shattered by the Zahir presence.The Zahir made me become the person who did things that were obvious that pleased the society , it defeated the rebel in me.

I always tried to understand life ,the journey which is more important than the destination which probably is the end and the person seizes to exist either physically or mentally, but this Zahir was kind of obstructing my intellect; my true understanding.Actually before this book actually happened i couldn't recognise it as Zahir , which further complicated the issue as the things that are not understood always confuse us. And in that confusion i was shooting arrows in the dark but to no use as the aim probably was never in that direction.I had to get rid of my personal history , free myself from the burden of my past and start building my life brick by brick and that is what the author suggests and talks about Love to achieve that the love for life , the quest for knowledge and through various references suggests us to enjoy the journey called life.

He also suggests us to live life on our own terms , but the manner should be way different that we may actually interpret we don't actually have to upset people by living our life at our own terms but live in a manner that the people who are a part of your life are never hurt. The Zahir if taken in a positive essence can cause an experience which a person may never ever expect to know in his entire life span and that requires a level of conscience and understanding which this book provides. The new aspect of looking at things had eventually released me of my burdens, the pain i carried in the form of Zahir and the impulsive decisions i took because of it.I feel more controlled and balanced . This was something which i penned down few years ago ,

" We are the boats , sailing in the waters of life;

Facing the waves of fright ;

Pondering to give a fight;

Continue in our might.

Storms will come;

and lead us to our doom.

but we ain't done yet ;

for it's life we fetch."

Although it was in my early teens that i wrote the above lines when i was fascinated by rhyming sentences and the concept of Octets and Sonnets but the realization and depth they had could be well interpreted with what I am dealing with today. So I have to continue living ,building every moment of it ,for the time that has gone by shall never return but a new beginning has every possibility , for the boat damaged in a storm can always be repaired like new.

Taking life in positive stride

I don't know why am I penning down this? But a great urge happens to control my senses at the moment and i cannot stop it or over power it and happen to be me , a self controlled personality.
Actually i was going through a blog and that said that people should like you in any form you present yourself to them and if they don't they are hurting you in an impeccable manner, that was so immature of the author, but the sense of childishness attracted me . That kind of child resides in every one of us and we try to defeat it as we grow old . Trying to convince everyone around us to our point of view, achieving things which a few years down the line wouldn't even matter or hurting someone which matters to you the most in the world are the few things we resort to , in order to achieve the essence of being successful.
I never hated anyone and avoid hurting individuals which matter a lot to me. In fact i learn a lot about me from the perception of others and if that is criticism then its all the better.
I don't care about clarifying issues but they always have a purpose and a positive purpose which a person may not understand then and there but a few years down the line they may realise that i was up to no harm, and these are a few physiological methods of getting past a failure that I always avoided.

Interpreting "Winners don’t do different things, they do things differently"

It has been a while since I wrote my last blog but this should be blamed on the shortage of time and the pile of tasks I had to undertake to justify my professional existence. During this, I had wonderful opportunities to learn about the behavioral patterns of individuals and their approach towards undertaking a task and the level of accomplishments achieved by them. In this blog I am going to shed light on this fact alone.
“Winners don’t do different things, they do things differently”, is the phrase we all have been listening to every time we seek motivation in our work or rather to say after a failure or a mishap. Do you really think this is what we seek to inspire us to do things successfully?? Strange as this may sound but the people the phrase refers to underwent more number of failures than a common individual yet they stood there facing the wraths of time and prevented themselves and their motivation from being overburdened by the hordes of failures they underwent. The most successful of all beings, inclusive of Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Abraham Lincoln, Sydney Sheldon and the list continues; faced many failures in their lives but they never looked at it as a failure but a mile stone which taught them that the task has to be done in a way different than what they had anticipated.
Edison after a series of failures during his invention of electric lamps quoted that “I have not failed but I have found thousand ways of, how not to proceed to build an electric lamp.” So it’s just the perception of an individual that matters and that is what acts as the motivating fact and keeps him going. But over the last few days I found people who considered the above phrase as the word of “The Oracle” and thought that they may easily win if they did things differently. What actually they should understand is that the more open they are to understanding their mistakes and learning from them, the more closer they will get to winning. The hilarious part of the above fact is if a person is doing things differently and he is continuously failing, he will start questioning his intellect even if the idea implemented by him was a brilliant one and nothing better could have been thought of in the present scenario and will start believing that “Doing things differently is surely his Mistake”.
For the real Phrase they should be following is “Try try and thou shall succeed”

life is what we maketh of it

Tieing the loose ends of my story is what i am currently doing , winding up every relation ,every emotion to the ending i had planned for them, with the competency of a show man. These events over a past few years have taught me to believe life is what we make of it!! It is certainly a matter of interest for those who believe life is a game of chance, for i planned every bit of it, i drew conclusions and plotted my theories with practicals falling exactly in rhythm with my theories.
Life is very short span for an individual to explorer every emotion in the book for he may be lacking the perfect plots to learn them so realizing the correct plot and identifying the emotions that could be studied in that scenario expresses one's competence as a show man. This is in my regards living life with one's own virtues and shaping it as we wish.
It all took me some time to realize the potential of the turf i was in , then i came to realize that i have a kink to understand how things work and how they could me manipulated to one's own interest . The power of controlling the opinion of the masses envisioned me to understand the collective human behaviour, this quest in me to understand the nature of things and learn from every move of mine or an individual directly affecting me,imparted me with knowledge and understanding of things i possess at the moment.
But every story has an end and so does this,but life goes on and their are still various emotions left to be explored , so in an ave to discover a new turf which could be winded off so easily and has the potential to change the understanding of an individual, i would tie the last loose string.

Evaluation

Interpretation of one’s thoughts is reflected in their actions and the reaction to those actions by their fellow beings. It sounds pretty much outrageous to satisfy everyone so that they are of the same opinion as you are, but as it is obvious that you are not complying to make them come with your point but are coming to theirs for obliging them and creating a false impression that you are winning them over.

Scholars preach to look life in the face, look life in the face and stand for ourselves and finally keep it away, fall victim to the powers that seem to drive this world , the irony as it seems to comply with all the stories of brave men and their deeds of virtues ,which we have grown hearing . They mock us in the face, embarrass us by implying that we are hurting them by throwing away the beautiful world they dream't for us .They believed that motive is the sole fuel for one’s existence and the motive to live and be of purpose is the greatest virtue one possesses. But what have we made of ourselves by just dwelling into luxuries of life enjoying it and wasting it for no cause or I must say an unknown cause? Self- destruction.

Human brain is considered the most noblest of all creation and scientifically speaking the complex of all tissue structures evolved since the world came into existence and Genesis took place , but we are still able to tap in only 3% of its potential and the brightest of all minds were able to reach a maximum of 10%. Doesn’t it sound outrageous that we being the most noblest of all the known life forms to have ever existed on earth were able to utilize only 10% of our potential, humorous as it seems that only few people are working to get to the bottom of the most impetuous problem at hand and rest are dwelling into luxuries, enjoyment and a life of no purpose, they are just thinking of the smaller picture. Themselves.

Answers as we all seek, but no one really seems to know them, have been the driving fuel of the people who built this civilization, who gave explanations of our existence, the solution to how things work. They tried to find every answer they could and created a base, a portal for us to continue. They made reason, logic an amicable truth in a society, which was merely superstitious over every deed occurring around us. They told us that it is our brain that will lead us to our survival in the future, evolve us into something more meaningful and shall be a gateway to our prosperity, not as a mere gesture of luxury and happiness, but as an evaluation of our generation which will make the riddle of life seem so small and the human race inimitably the greatest of all living forms to have been chosen by that superior power to solve this “riddle of life”.

A brief history called LIFE

Recently i got my hands on Stephen Hawking’s best seller 'A brief history of time' and in that he has tried to explain time in the most appropriate scientific terms , but the fascinating fact is that the man never had time on his side.
At the age of 22 he started developing symptoms of amyotrophic lateral sclerosis (colloquially known as Lou Gehrig's disease), a type of motor neuron disease which would cost him the loss of almost all neuromuscular controls .Stephen revealed that he did not see much point in obtaining a doctorate if he was to die soon that is the reaction of a young individual who believes that every thing is finished when he finds himself in the gulf of darkness and no path yields to him the happy life he expects to live. A Zen master said How do you know? What does this mean..... to you? Does it mean “how do you know?" or "How do you Know ?"or does it mean "How do you know? the statements seem pretty much similar but have an insight they are trying to emphasize on the fact that who are we to decide that our life is finished or their is nothing left to be done . The time as expressed by Stephen hawking has no catch it could open up a realm of beauty ,mystic and adventure in no time , then who are we to decide that the story has ended also when we have not even turned to the second page . Once a great scholar said turn over the pages for we don't know what the book of life has in store for us , things sometime do happen by chance and these chances give us hope and inculcate in us the desire to survive and that makes us human. The desire to exist and be useful has kept stephen hawking going , got him the tag of an exceptional scientist and gave hope to many who have seized to persist , annoyed of life wanted to end every thing.
Recently Stephen Hawking was in News for his ‘zero gravity’ experience , there seemed to be a great deal of satisfaction in his smile as he experienced that moment it seemed as if he had been waiting for that moment from years , a satisfaction to reach out to stars vested in him the desire to live on life support equipments , to do something extra ordinary beyond the realms of the wheelchair that housed him .
Hope, dreams and the attainment of dreams are the factors that constitute one’s life span, but doing things extraordinarily is what make life meaningful.
Will life be really exciting if it posed to us no difficulty , no challenges , no defeats ,no hope????